So I noted that I had to bear and wait for the truth of what I was going through to surface, unbeknownst to me that this was going to be a very long journey because I waited for straight nine years before I was finally released from my suffering.

If you recollect, I did mention that I was experiencing sensations, well, overtime these sensations became more and more frequent. I would constantly bend my head in a backward stroke for hours if I was all alone and I would be tapping my right leg on the floor just to ease my discomfort. However working took my mind off it and it was majorly when I was all by myself that I remembered the discomfort.

Somewhere along the line, before the session I had missed was over, I had to stop working at the accounts firm and took up another job with a close friend of my family that was a florist.
The job was fun and different as it was just she, her driver and myself that were the main staff of the firm. I learnt the various names of the variety of roses and flowers and watched closely sometimes how she mixed them up in a bid to supply smaller floral firms since she was wholesaler. My job for her was key and was very soon over, reason being that Delta state university came to Lagos to open up a satellite campus and my folks got the forms for me to attend. It was sad to leave it all behind, but I had to go to school.

School wasn’t as easy as I had imagined because I was admitted into the accounting department. Yes I had accounting background as work experience but in school I found it confusing and tricky. In fact on several occasions I went back to my former employer requesting him to kindly explain certain aspects to me.

Apart from this area, I was depressed. Mainly because I seemed to be having more relapses and every time I had one the sedation became a lot heavier, all the attendant side effects I had mentioned earlier would come back and to top it all I would forget a bit of myself when I recovered. Let me explain this.
Imagine if before a relapse, I was happier and had started learning to knit, upon recovery I would entirely forget that I had been knitting and that aspect of my life would be forgotten. The relapses was taking away a bit of me each time it happened. Eventually I owned up to myself that I needed spiritual help and I started going to see a counsellor.

At each session with this counsellor, I would cry my heart out as a result of the discomfort in my head and body. I would weep in sorrow and fear and she would console me and lay her hands on my head and pray for me. God bless her! The memories of it all seem just like yesterday but it’s been over thirteen years since I was delivered. I know you would like to know immediately what the truth was but please be patient, you’ll get to find out very soon.

How I managed through school was the grace of God. But eventually the session was coming to an end and just when I was adjusting to this new school and rather boring course, my course mates and I heard rumors that the satellite campus was going to close down and we all reapplied for Jamb. This time my results came out better and I gained admission into University of Benin. You can imagine how overjoyed I was.

So in rounding up today’s post, I would like to speak briefly about how I overcame constant depression.
I made up my mind to always be happy and God backed it up for me. As simple as that. You can either let it subdue you OR you can choose to rise above it and I chose to rise above it. I chose that I was going to be happy despite my circumstances and this changed my entire perspective. With time I noticed that my emotions started to feel uplifted and rather than feeling constantly depressed, I settled into whom God created me to be.

It was a daily fight before I mastered it, because first and foremost in most trials, there’s a lesson to be learnt/discovered and after that you need to master the lesson. You need to always see your trials from the bigger picture – God’s perspective. What does he want me to learn from all this? otherwise it may be a very long journey / trial for you. So quit being depressed whatever the situation, choose to be happy and God will back it up for you and change you into someone that’s comfortable in your own skin.

I love to write some more and to increase the frequency of my posts and I’m sure many of you would like to see me do that but let just say that all that is in the pipeline. Kindly reach out to me via email if you want to and most importantly thanks for reading.