I learnt from my very first post in 2021 that most people like to start their new year on a low note, so I don’t intend to disrupt this flow for the majority of you today. Instead, I guess I’ll just have a brief conversation with you all.

I guess, you’ll be wondering how I arrived at my deduction above? Lol, well, I kind of monitored the trend last year and to say the truth, I lashed out at me for being too hasty and rather insensitive. Guess what though? When I raised the same topic later on that year, I had all of your undivided attention. 

That being said, a little bird told me that the beginning of every year calls for sober reflections as many folks, like to search inwards, to trace unhealthy habits or lifestyles. Simply put, they weigh their successes of the previous year. However, when the bird whispered, I responded by saying, Oh no!, I’m not doing that. I did that last year (if some of you recall), just before the start of the holidays. I suggested that it would be best to put things into perspective by seeing things from all angles. At the end of my sober reflection, I realized that it meant more to have a heart of gratitude rather than one full of despondence. Don’t get me wrong, issues did bother me (so don’t deem me as being insensitive). 

What then gave me this different paradigm? Well, it stemmed from younger years and my experience with the incidence that occurred. At the onset, there were times, I just wanted it to be all over. Waiting for God to turn up seemed like the longest wait I ever experienced. If you have a minute, try to envisage what it feels like to be different from everyone, constantly twitching and moving your head in backward strokes. Trying to stay calm in public, but when in secret, bending and turning your head intensely to ease your discomfort from the stinging flies inside your head.  It’s a bit hard to envisage not so?  On several occasions I wore myself out and the torture from my captors only became more unbearable. Eventually, I quit fighting and it was only when I released my entire being and burden to Jehovah, that he showed up. This made me understand that he alone, had all answers. 

What exactly am I saying? We all want more than anything to move forward in this life, to have breakthroughs. Each of us have issues we are dealing with. It’s so easy to get perturbed by some of them – “Where will the money to pay school fees come from?”, “Why am I not being considered for a promotion?”, “Why is no one coming for my hand in marriage?”, “How do I pay my rent when I have such a shortfall in my finances?”, “My children don’t seem to be moving ahead in life?”, “I don’t have enough funds to last me until month end?”, “I have no job?”…. and the list goes on.

To say the truth, I have no answer to any of these questions but the one who does is none other than Jesus. However, many times we like to take take the bull by the horn and do things on our own. You know what I’ve learnt to do? Rest! Not wearing myself out, just resting. Resting in the one who has it altogether and leaving my problems with him. I’ve understood that anxiety won’t make my issues any less. Rather, when I rest in him, he opens my eyes and my mind, to each opportunity / doorway in my path and I know which step to take.

So please, just rest and think less. 

Talk to you later…. Take care.